I have had a wonderfully, relaxing day today. The only days that I truly ever relax is when I am not at home because then I don't feel guilty for sitting on the couch watching a movie, or reading a book, or taking a long walk because there isn't something looming in my kitchen that needs cleaning or a pile of clothing that needs folding. I can actually just sit and relax. We got up early this morning (we are in Vernal) and headed up the mountain to take a ride on a raft down the Green River. I have been so excited about his for a while now. Looking forward to a little rest and relaxation. The strangest thing to me is that I haven't worried about it. I haven't worried that the current would be too strong and that our raft would flip and we would all die of drowning. Because, sad as it is, I normally think this way. Everything is always a worry to me. I have a major case of anxiety that I have never quite conquered. Anyway...we had our sweet little boy with us and Ryan's parents and his little sister. The weather was beautiful, the raft was strong and we set out to explore the unknown, at least for me since Chi and I were the only one's who hadn't experienced the ride. It was so calming, at times a little too calm I must admit, but there were moments that we caught some good rapids and it was SO MUCH FUN. Chi was in heaven. I don't think he stopped smiling once! We got each other wet, well mostly Ryan got everyone wet and when Brinli finally got him wet he grabbed her and through her overboard. What a stinker! He always has to have the last laugh. Well, to fast forward a little, I knew I had to get him so Brinli and I poured out his Mountain Dew later in the day and replaced it with water and a lot of salt. He went to take a drink and of course realized it wasn't Dew. It wasn't the greatest of pranks but at least we got him a little. Anyway, the ride was so relaxing, we had a wonderful time. The rest of the day has consisted of naps, two walks with Chi while he rode his bike around the neighborhood, and a good read with Marley and Me. Even reading this book makes me appreciate the simplicity of my life. I am not anyone special or famous and yet I have a very good, blessed life that I need to be more thankful for. Sure I don't have everything I want. Like a new baby to wake up in the middle of the night to feed. But, I have a strong feeling that one day I will. I am realizing there are many things that I still need to do in order to be ready for such an experience. I received some good councel from a good friend to read one of the articles in this month's ensign. It has do do with having heaven opened to you daily. It talks about having morning devotionals with yourself and promises that there will be changes in your life. Definitely becoming closer to the Lord and becoming a more faithful daughter of God has to be my priority in life before I receive any of the blessings that I so desperately want.